Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Why is it that even someone so close to you breaks your heart?

I had a row with my husband last night!!! Mummy says (ok everyone in the universe says) it is bad to say bad things or even do bad things to your husband that you might regret later. So what did I do this time?

I tortured myself instead by SLEEPING ON THE SINGLE BED IN OUR SECOND ROOM!!!! Not that I am complaining cos it wasn't that bad at all, new bed, with the window right beside me, with the nice air to cool me down... 

and him on the huge bed all by himself must be horrible without me... LOL

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BACK TO THE ISSUE...

Why did we argue??? of course it was over some stupid issue... I have been having problems with this particular someone which I do not want to mention and UNFORTUNATELY, this person is affecting me. FML!

I have been making efforts in forgiving this person as Buddha teaches us to forgive and to forget... Not that I have been reading books/ learning from monks, but my mum relays to me all of Buddha's teaching. Yes I am a Buddhist and proud to be one! and I believe in KARMA! Anyway, I am a very forgiving person (hate myself for that cos I always end up being bullied), but to forget is a very difficult task for me! I AM A WOMAN if you are not aware of!

As mentioned I have been making efforts to accept this person again, but hubby thinks that I am still angry mangry that he doesn't want to mention a s**t to me! Fine that he wants to protect my feelings but even if I am still angry mangry, I still want to know what is happening although I don't want to at times. Cos I AM KAYPO (nosy)!!!!

You know, the thing is, the more you try to keep a conversation limited, the more your partner will feel that you are hiding something from him or her although he or she isn't.

The worst thing, this all happened cos he got a message in his FB and I wanted to see and he said no... WHY did he say no???? Cos my best friend, Yvonne Ng, once sent me a message on FB and I got all super upset when he read it without my permission!!! But that was different, it was without my permission but this was with his permission... ISH!

Anyway, I am a strong woman... This is just a small obstacle in life/ in a relationship! If life is to be good all year round or all your life, then it isn't life, you must be already in heaven or something.

He knows I forgive him in minutes, but this time I wanted to show him that I can be angry for 1 night. He can make it up by simply buying me McD or a simple dinner outside... That's how easy it is for him to win my heart back...

To everyone out there: Treasure the one you love, you might hurt each other at times, but it is OK, it's just part of life. Just make sure you make it up after that!!! xoxoxo

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