Cross-Cultural Wedding: Being angry doesn't help but makes it more painful

Remember my previous entry on how someone close to you can break your heart?

I just found out the whole real situation last night and I literally EXPLODED!!! I have never seen myself in that stage and it scared the shit out of me... sorry for my language! But seriously, I totally lost my temper, and I thought I was going crazy and I wished I own a private jet where I can just fly home anytime I want.

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I have got friends here, I am not that pathetic.. sometimes I feel that I haven't got anyone here but I do, it's just that I don't quite feel so comfortable yet to reveal everything (although I do it very often FTS)... When I needed to speak to someone last night, I had no clue who to call cos it was like 6am in Malaysia. ARGH!!!!! kek si wah (frustrated)!

I got my parents so worried today. When you are far away (disadvanatage of being married to a foreigner), sending your parents or best friends, or siblings a text message saying you are down, they will automatically feel sad. I am so sorry mum, dad, Yvonne (if you were actually worried LOL) and of course my lovely brother who called and cheered me up! Never knew my brother would be my best friend today cos he never did like to go out with me when I was younger (we're talking about when I was below 18 cos when I reached the age of 18, I was his farm helper [u know what I mean, he and his friends would try to hit on my girlfriends and so they call it "farming"]).

So, after all the shouting and screaming (of course they all came from me), as my husband is the so-ever- calm-guy... I finally realised we were fighting over nothing!

I have been married for only 1 year now, there is still so much to learn!!! Dear readers, I will not lie that my life is filled with colours. However, I am not complaining though cos I chose this path and I will, we will, make it work!

P.S: If he does it, I promise I will bring a dog home VERY SOON! cos it all started because of the dog (who nearly killed me when I tried to snatch his bone once) At least my 2 dogs are lovely!